Dial Up, Dial In

It seems my days have been very full, in ways I like and in ways I'd rather not have to deal with (horribly upset teething Tutu – but thanks for the tips, they are helping!). I have been getting an every so tiny bit of crafting in. I snapped this picture with my iPhone before pulling off the pieces to stack and put together:

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I have better pictures of it coming together, but I thought what happened next was more representative of how I feel about many things in life right now. 

Fall down-2

I bumped the board. And all that work of deciding what goes where and putting them just so was scattered about on the floor. I don't have a lot of time to do much of anything craft wise. So I sighed and got out the phone to reference and put them all back up again. Then Tutu started crying so I balanced her on one hip while stacking the rows. 

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And I bumped the board again. I just wanted to finish ONE THING. I feel that I can't do that ever and it's driving me nutso! I have yarn spun and plied that is one my wheel because I have no time to get it off (this is a process that takes 15 minutes tops). So I took a deep breath, took sobbing little Tuesday upstairs and told Bj, "I need 15 minuets, I need it, PLEASE." He took Tuesday, I figured out the pattern (again), got the rest of the blocks stacked and ready to piece and feel much better. I have seriously got to get it together! My mom thinks it's her fault I feel that I have to get so much done. She called today to apologize after explaining that I must have gotten it from her. She was throwing a neighborhood girls night out party (such a cool idea to meet all the neighbors!) but at the same time felt she had to finish a blanket, run to the store, etc. Of course the difference is that she did it all… 

Maybe I just need to get back to the blogging every day to feel better, because I do get things done, but life seems to be moving so fast I can't focus on any one very long. The problem is the !#[email protected]#% wifi won't connect well to my computer, and now not to my phone. And I realize this is terribly spoiled of me, but I've gotten used to surfing the web and uploading things super fast. I do not like the whole, go make a cup of tea while a page loads thing, at all. I think maybe that is the Universe telling me to slow down, take a breath and look around. Which I plan to do for the rest of the week. Hopefully I'll be able to upload and tell you all about it.  

14 Replies to “Dial Up, Dial In”

  1. Aw don’t be so hard on yourself. You have a little one now, things are different. Especially when they aren’t feeling well. Your quilt looks beautiful!

  2. hang in there, she will get better!! you are awesome remember that and I love the blues and purples of your new quilt!

  3. I know that feeling so well! I’ve been gone so much this summer, and the housework and craft projects just kept piling up until I was overwhelmed. Just getting one or two things accomplished can make me feel so much better.
    My mom did it all, too, but she assures me that she wasn’t doing any better than I am when I was 6 months old. In fact, she says she doesn’t know how I’ve been able to do as much as I have, so I guess it’s all perspective.

  4. We all get that way. I call them “fed up moments” because even though you are at your wit’s end, your last nerve, etc., you know it’ll just be a moment before things right themselves again. It’s okay to step back and say–that’s it! I’m done! Have you ever read Robert Fulghum’s book “All I needed to know I Learned in Kindergarten”? He has a section there about “polishing the stick.” Basically, he was talking about how we all need to go to summer camp where all we have to accomplish is polishing the camp spirit stick. When I am having a frazzly day as a mom, I decide what my “stick” will be for the day and do that. That way, I know I’ve done something positive, and the rest can just wait. (If you’ve read the vignette, it’ll make more sense!) Keep blogging so we can be here for you!
    Smiles,
    Dianne

  5. You are doing an awesome job and get so much done in a day, more than you realize. Remember that you are taking care of your Tuesday while doing everything else you do. And while it seems that your Mom does everything, keep in mind she had lots of other days to do that blanket. Some days the universe just spins right and you accomplish more! When all is said and done the best time spent is with family and friends (that blanket really didn’t matter and it was in all fairness to you it was 2 months after the baby was born)! Love Mom

  6. The purples and lime are working excellent together—it looks to be a very calming quilt. Dude, set the boards on the floor, so you stop bumping it. 😉

  7. i think the universe has been telling a lot of people to slow down lately…
    including me. hang in there friend!
    the quilt looks LOVELY! i agree with katie – the purples + limes look excellent together! also, any chance you can just make a more permanent felt wall? i’m trying to think of where down in craft/ribbon jar land…but maybe there isn’t enough wall space to layout a whole quilt on?
    give tuesday a hug from her friend sarah…
    and tell her to give you one back from me! 🙂

  8. I can’t beleive you lay the entire quilt out to make it look random! Wow, you really do impress me! Seriously Amber, I would feel so good if I got everything done that you do. To me having lunch is an accomplishment. You set the bar too high! You leap miles above everyone else’s bar, but somehow still don’t manage to clear your own! Don’t forget you also work all day. Tuesday is so lucky to have you. Just wait until she can talk and she will tell you how much she loves you!

  9. Hey, you’re amazing! Look at you, making a quilt with a teething eight-month-old! I don’t know you except from your blog, but I just wanted to say that all mums have those days, and those periods of time that just seem endless and impossible. You will get through it. Good on you saying you just had to have that 15 minutes. Sending positive thoughts your way.

  10. Yeah, don’t be too hard on yourself. I have a little one too and just take it day by day. Your mom is right in that family and friends are first, everything else second. I used to get stressed out about all my craft projects present and in my head but I had to let some of that go. It’s supposed to be fun, right?
    BTW, check your post about a magazine swap. I have some I’d be willing to part with if interested.

  11. In a world where we all seem to get caught up trying to hide our imperfections your honesty is refreshing and calming…. things get really crazy around here as well.

  12. I always feel like you run the risk of the room looking padded….

  13. Oh my gosh I think I will melt when she says she loves me. I hope it’s not followed by, “I want a pony” because I think she might get one!

  14. OMG. i totally didn’t think of that! but yes! you’re right…
    it would look like a padded room. not cool 😉

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